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The last time I blogged was 8 frigging months ago.  I’ve gotten a new and very demanding job that I love.  I’m getting married in precisely 2 months and a couple of days.  I am not scraping the barrel each month to figure out how to make it to next month.  

It’s different.  I still struggle with FUD – fear, uncertainty and doubt – but the long days make for a more hopeful me.  One big change is that I am attempting nearly every second of the day to open my mind and heart to joy.  You don’t make it to this age, generally, without getting knocked on your arse HARD.  Some of us have a harder time getting up.  I always got up and then started running.  

I’m attempting to slow down, to be mindful of the release from the schedule I had where each moment of the day was accounted for.  It’s not my natural state this joyful openness.  Right now it’s hard work.

I made a promise to myself that I would write more.  I haven’t done that.  I’m going to try and be better about that promise going forward.  Writing is a lovely and essential thing, like knitting and I need to keep at it.  

I’m headed to my shower.  A 4 hour affair.  I’m going to try and stay open to the joy of friends and family.