I’m having trouble processing the news that my friend, who gave notice today, is leaving. I’ve been open to a lot more emotion recently than I used to be. Trying to keep myself connected to people instead of withdrawing. It hurts, kinds alot. I think it’s healthy, but it’s also hard. Especially when I am hormonal and feeling unworthy and lost. I do feel lost and unworthy. That’s the worst and hardest part.

I’m not sure how to recover from this. I don’t know if this is post 50 let down, or what, but it isn’t fun. For now I am gooing to just sit with the feelings and hopefully the way out is through.